O God, what do You want?

Never have got anything on a platter.
Never have won a battle while on the saddle.
Making me toil hard.
Making me fight,
like a fallen knight, for a honor
So tough to guard.

O God what do You want?
Making me do things
the way You want?
Losing all on the platter,
Is that my destiny, for that matter?

Any higher motives You have in store?
For this was the latest and the biggest in my life,
The Bore.
For if there are not, why do I do
what I do?

Perseverance is a quality, they say
Patience a virtue.
Sweet are fruits of hard work, they said.
Expectations were great. Efforts not far behind.
What went wrong? Who is to blame?
Nobody except me, destiny they say,
Plays a very big game.