Went home last weekend. Had nothing special to do while traveling. Ended up thinking about what am I doing with my "precious" little life! And realised I didn't know what I would want to do with it at all!
Rewinding to the Good Ol' School days. The only aim I had in mind was to get that coveted first position in the class, come what may. Once that came along easily, the next aim was to improvise further, and get that "first" tag in each subject. That too came along, in most of the subjects. Then what? Mom urged to take part in the other activities. Thus began a relentless journey into the world of elocution & debating. Ended my school career as the unchallenged orator. But then what?
One fine day, I hear about a senior from school cracking the toughest exam on earth, the IIT-JEE, and getting all kinds of accolades & media coverage for that! Didn't know what it meant, but eyes were set on the next goal! And thus started the two year journey of mad-man like study, and there I was, with four years at IIT-B staring at me. Wow! So far so good. But what next?
There was the usual brain-washing session on the first day by seniors, rubbishing all academic achivements, and going ga-ga over organizational activities and whatever. Then came the first dilemma. What to do? Acads? Extra-currics? Dunno! Kept doing what I was best at. Mugna, as it is said, for the better part of first two years. All of a sudden, an urge to do something different, kuchh alag!.
And thus entered the arena of "organizing" events. Before I knew, there was an internship with ITC staring at my face, the most coveted internship by the job-mongers. Somehow, managed to get that as well! A dream-run. Then, the US 0f A came calling. Stories of greener pastures abroad doing rounds in the wing. What to do! Took GRE. Ha! Now what? Internship time draws closer. The senior junta getting all nbd in life coz of placements. The funda of PPO is brought into the picture, and ITC is hailed as one of the fathers of this God. Come Bangalore (Bengaluru for some, eh), Come Kolkata. And then there it was. The PPI.
Fast forward to current time. There it was. The PPO. All tensions put to rest. Nothing more to achieve in life! All efforts of getting into the IIT paying rich dividends, eh. Ha!
And now here I am, wondering what is it that I want to do with this life of mine? Make money? Yeah, that would be nice. Leave a mark in the history of mankind by doing something memorable? Yeah, but doesn't each one of us want to do that? Then what?
Thinking about it, what is it that life exists for? For living, of course! Do ants have any purpose in life? Doesn't seem to be so. Or for that matter, did our great great ancestors, the so-called Early Men, have any purpose in life? Nothing, except "living" per se, I guess. Well then, so I guess, it is decided. My goal in life is to live.
To Live. Ha! Live life, king size! The pre-requisites? Money, power, fame (maybe). So, maybe then, in a way, the money, the power we crave for is not an end in itself. Just a means to achieve the end. The Road to Redemption. The Ultimate Goal, remains, to "live"!
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Awesome blog...
The mind of a final yearite is always under shambles like this !!!... May god help all the final yearites :D
Its like the syndrome tht mountaineers have... They scale a mountain... but they just HAVE to scale the next higher one... why?... 'Because it's there' :)
U need to find your Everest dude!
P.S. "Live life King size"??? already started lving the company brand??:)) :P
Yeah! Maybe the Everest is just thr, staring. Maybe everyone has an Everest!
But one thing's for sure. ITC is IN for the time being :D
Yes, life is about living but then where does the "king-size" come into picture? To think of it, consider two men on death bed. As the movie goes - one rich and the other poor. Tell me what you would like to be - rich who had always worked to become richer or the poor who tried his best on economic terms but lived a life of balance. There may be many modifications to this problem - say a rich man manifesting balance and so on. But this is one case which make cracking nuts tougher.
I dont say that working hard is bad or something. But balance is very important and probably one of the most difficult things to achieve in human life. I even dont deny the importance of money or fame but inner peace comes through satisfaction of the spirit and not the ego!
"king size" here refers to doing what u want to do, what u like to. One shud nt get bogged down by the limitations imposed by the immediate society or by our own inner doubts. Bcoz only when u test those limits, does the scope of activity expands, not only for u, but for the generations down the line.
There are many ppl who do things bcoz it is a path well-trodden, and lead their complete lives in the fear of the "unexpected". What I want to say is: "Do not fear anything but fear itself"
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